Time is passing quickly now, I suppose it always has. Days seem to slip away faster than ever; my perception is perhaps accelerated by the season. The relentless pursuit spurs me forward. I trod on, pushed and pulled by past and future. Today, though, we are going to step back and check in. This will be a quick update, with fresh expectations for the future, and a little glance back to monitor progress.
This year has been…interesting. It has been a demanding time and I want to thank those of your whom have joined us in support. If one year ago your had told me I would be where I am now, doing what I am doing, I would have laughed, or maybe given you my trademark resting scowl and raised a brow.
A year ago I had just started a new position at work, I had dropped down to part-time and re-started a second hellish job Kay Jewelers. My mother was diagnosed with stage three cancer. I waited in anticipation, and fear, of the cold dark months ahead. Everything was bleak. I needed an out.
Over the course of several months I wrestled with my stark need for privacy and hate for sharing as I tossed around the idea of starting a blog, and a business. I hated the thought of telling people about myself. I’d rather hide in the shadows. I created it anyways.
In constant and often debilitating pain, I reluctantly accepted gift cards for massage, and used them. Research began into the field, and I realized the potential of the career. I wrestled with my overwhelming distaste for intimate connection with humans. I hated the thought of touching people. I enrolled anyways.
In my unending need to keep climbing, and improving, I have lost so much. My relationship failed, because I did not have time. I haven’t seen those I’m closest with, for months on end, because I’m just too busy. Sometimes I lose track of who I am and what my goals actually are in their pursuit. But I have gained so much.
Most importantly, I have learned so much. My perspective has shifted so drastically, and I am so grateful for everything I’ve done for myself, for every comfort zone I have destroyed.
Those that stay around me, that offer their love and help despite my stiff demeanor and iron (stubborn ass) will, are incredible people. I value you more than you will ever know (because I’m an emotional shut in) Thank you for your presence.
What is New
Openly, I will tell you I am struggling now. I’ve entered a dark phase, I’m worn down. Conversationally, this is likely mostly due to my schedule not allowing for enough outdoor time. A lack of sun has a profoundly negative effect on me the older I get. But I’m never going to give in to the cess pool of stagnation.
I’M HALFWAY DONE WITH SCHOOL!!!! Over halfway done, mind you! I couldn’t be more excited about this fact. It has been a draining experience – end commentary.
What is Ahead
Graduation! I’m extremely excited to say that licensing will happen before graduation. My state’s requirements fall short of my school’s requirements. That means that I’ll be OUT of retail and into the business of bodywork, and physically (and magically) destroying people’s problems.
I’ve decided to officially change the posting schedule here to bi-weekly. Keeping up with this blog and all of its extended social platforms is a full-time venture when approached the way I have in the past. I take this seriously, but adding full-time school and work on top of it has been difficult. I’m seeking quality over quantity, and I want to meet those expectations that I set both for myself and for others. Finishing school will mean quitting a job to start a hands on business, and all of he struggle that comes with that sort of start-up. This biweekly posting schedule will be the norm through that process.
I will maintain my focus on growing this platform with quality information, inspiration, and tools – simply at a slower rate than previously planned.
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